Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Make Room for More......

We are in the process of getting full custody of MM's two boys. They are six and eight years old... two boys that he had from a previous relationship. Their mother (don't even get me started...) gave them to the state three years ago. MM had a job as an over the road truck driver and was in South Carolina and couldn't get to Ohio in time for the hearing, so the boys went into temporary custody with the mother's boyfriend's aunt. Yeah. I know. Confusing???? Yeah. So this woman is no relation to the boys, at all. But, see, she gets help from the government, plus child support from MM and his ex-girlfriend. So, this woman is pretty set each month. And, now that MM has shown interest in full custody, they have let it be know that they are NOT having it. He just had to go to court to get court ordered visitation with them, bc the woman (lets call her B... for obvious reasons) says MM can't see the boys without court order now. GRRRRR......

My home will grow from just Monkey and Me a year and a half ago to a house full.... Me, Monkey, Milk Man, the two boys and we are trying for another baby, so add one more kid!! Yeah. From two to SIX! Thats a big change.... bear with me here.. lol.

There are alot of changes that come with new kids. Another bedroom, more laundry, more groceries, ect. But, also.... there's alot of love to go out. That sounds bad. But for the last three years, it has been all about Monkey. Everyhing revolved around my child. It stilldoes... but bringing in two (possibly three) new kids... he's going to have to adjust to sharing more than just his toys. He's always had my undivided attention. He's never had to share Mommy. That will be hard, both for him and for me.

I guess at the end of the day, there's always enough love togo around.. but how does your heart grow that big? When he was born, it felt as though my heart would BURST, bc it was soooo full of love . How do you love so many people with only one heart?

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